Observation

It was bed time last night, but I didn’t engage myself much, at least I couldn’t remember anything that I did was to help Candle Qigong to grow or myself to grow, feeling not that content. I decided to pay attention to what I do all day.

Old Habits Led

I noticed my mind took a little time to recognise what it was before engaging the present moment. It started from head, once my conscious mind started to work, I thought what thought I would like to engage was the most beneficial, no thought, for thought is in the six sense, even seven sense is making a mistake. Let it be, see how long I could do without thinking. Food came to the mind, I looked at the stomach, stomach was perfect content.

2 mins later, food! I reached to the kitchen and heated up a soya milk, nuts…oh, I was doing what I normally do, scream…old habit is such a powerful thing, my poor body, victim, I am sorry. I need to time block myself so I won’t be dragged by my habits.

Decision

Then it picked momentum, found could not stop myself from doing it once it started, you see when I started eating this morning I wasn’t even know what the food tasted like. I feel sorry for the food, they give their life to serve me. I am not going to make myself feel bad about myself but I am going to learn what drive my habit instead.

I love to change the habit I judge my child not sleep on time, even I knew she is the mirror of myself, I am not organised my life as well as I would like. But I forget, Words are powerful thing, I need to use words with care as they are spiritual, everything is Qi, has vibration, the more we engage something, the thing will be stronger.

I will post something to help you guys, what drive us, how our habits are so strong, how can we break them and build helpful habits, is there a way we help ourselves to live as freely as a bird? I am going to see to that now!

Awareness Raised, Drama starved out

I tried to think before I did, what the ideal outcome from the task, or did the task I was to do improve the few areas that I care, if they took me away I would stop doing it altogether. There were a few time strong desires came up, like watching something Chinese, I didn’t allow myself because they didn’t add anything to self aware, my main purpose is being aware what I am doing from moment to moment.

Alignment

Also I knew if I watch drama only make me more emotional, the highest me has no emotion, no memory, no thought, it flows life force effortlessly. I need to learn to bend my body, mind and emotion to obey these laws, to be with the essence of life. I stopped me to watch anything that was emotion today, what a weird feeling inside, a strong call sort thing, but I didn’t give it in, for the more attention I give it, the stronger it will get, right?

Happiness Happened

I looked within, it was so quiet and comforting. Try it guys.